life returning to normal

tried to sleep in this morning, but K woke up pissed off (not at me, but about my son's injury). He is doing well, at home, resting. Once she calmed down we had sex. I can't call it making love, because it was purely physical. She was not really in the mood, but I went down on her and we proceeded from there. I wish she was more Domme and could tell me know. Or better yet, have me please her and leave myself high and dry.

thanks to the people that wrote expressing their concerns. Really looking forward to life getting back to normal.

Lack of updates

I am sorry for the lack of updates, however my wife and I are dealing with a personal tragedy. My son suffered a brain injury on Monday and is in critical care. He is stable but has a long way to go to recover. Will write again when things settle down.

Saturday mornings

K and I have a ritual of sorts on Saturday mornings, we sleep in, then make love. This morning I made sure she came first, then I got on top, wrapped her around me, and had her bite my neck as I came (with her permission). It was wonderful.

still waiting on my steel chastity belt (should be next month). will let everyone know how that goes.

More to come soon.

Catching up

Sorry for not posting for the past few days, I got busy at work. First, let me catch everyone up on my recent activities. Wednesday, K and I fucked. She was very horny, I made sure she came first, then I asked her permission before I came (I wish once she would say no).

Yesterday, I spent a lot of time in and out of various ball stretchers (some of them tend to let one of my balls slip out). I got so horny that at the end of the day I 'had' to jerk off. It was a very good cum.

Today I am behaving myself. Some edging but no cuming. I am waiting for the steel chastity belt I ordered, probably won't arrive before tax time.

Still searching for more chastity blogs and videos. If anyone knows of any, please let me know.

edging

Had the opportunity to jerk off during my lunch break, spent it looking at porn and bringing myself to the brink, but not cumming. Must have gotten close half a dozen times. Have been reading a lot of other people's blogs on chastity, some hot stuff out there. It seems a lot of men have the same problem I do, the desire to be locked up but a partner with little to no interest. Finished work late, more tomorrow

Mondays

I hate Mondays (doesn't everyone?) Busy day at work, still got home relatively on time and made dinner for the kids. (K makes her own dinner). Have been wearing a ' bull ring' ball stretcher most of the day. It feels great. I am thinking of buying a few more of these. Feeling very fat, overate this weekend. As far as chastity is concerned, I am still trying to figure out how to discuss the topic with K. She is usually sexually submissive, though she is dominant in other aspects of her life. I have seen her be sexually aggressive but only with other women. At least I have been able to keep my hands off my dick today.

updates etc....

Yesterday AM K and I made love. It was gentle and tender and loving. No way she could have been domme, she was my girl and I was her Man. Makes me wonder if I am ever going to get up the nerve to talk to her about holding my key. What I want (and hopefully she agrees too) would be for us to have our current relationship with the exception of her holding the key, preventing me from masturbating. Eventually, I think she would began to take advantage of the situation and become more and more dominant.

This morning I am wearing 2 neoprene ball stretchers and a neoprene cock ring (pictured). Feels good, tight. Need to keep stretching my balls.

I heard back from the birdlock people, no good suggestions. If I decide to modify the device I will let everyone know and show pics of what I did (if it works).



addendum: after wearing the ball stretchers and cock ring I got so worked up that I 'had to' jerk off. I really need to work on my discipline

45 minutes

(hangs head in shame) I only lasted 45 minutes in the birdlock. 2 problems surfaced, one the pants I was wearing were too tight and showed the device, since I was heading to work that would be a bad idea. Second, there was some burning sensation in my ball sack. I would have worked through that if not for the device outline showing. The most disappointing part: I was able to pull the device off. I did not have the keys (I left those at home) so I pulled straight forward and the device slipped off (with only a mild amount of pain). This is not good. If I was locked up for real I would have been able to get it off. There is no way I could have put it back on without unlocking it, so my keyholder would have known I cheated. I have written the manufacturer about the problem and will let you know what he has to say. I have an idea of combining the curve's hinged ring with the device, will play around with it this weekend.

locked up

Its early and already the day is "interesting." Yesterday I wore the neoprene ball stretcher all day, got so horny that I jerked off before going home from work. This morning I locked myself into the birdlock chastity device and left the keys at home, meaning I will be locked in all day no matter what (unless it falls off). That should make me keep my hands to myself. On another note, my Flickr account was flagged as 'unsafe' so I had to change my icon and restrict all my pictures. The day can only get better.

life on the edge

I have been experimenting with edging, playing with myself until I am on the edge of cumming, then stopping. It is very frustrating but can lead to fantastic orgasms. The down side is, I am leaking precum, tons of it. I even thought of putting on a pad. I realize that once I am locked up for real I won't be able to play with myself at all. Still working on the ball stretching, I think it is coming along well and I should be able to use the birdlock device by next week. As for the chastity belt I purchased, sent in the measurements today, will take 4-6 weeks to arrive. The best knews is that K and I are 'scheduled' to fuck tonight! Should make for an exciting evening.

idle hands

Snow day in the Baltimore area. Very slow morning at work, then the UPS man shows up with my neoprene ball stretchers. I put one on immediately as well as a neoprene cock ring. It felt fantastic. I wore it all afternoon and when the business day was done, just had to see how well things worked with the devices in place. Needless to say, everything worked great. Had one hell of an orgasm. No real guilt afterwords, maybe I should have felt it. Will post pics of the neoprene later. K was home all day (her office was closed). She was in a good mood, I started asking her permission to do various things. I think this may lay the ground work before asking her to lock me up. Let me know what you think.

progress

the ball stretching is going well, in fact I was able to put on the birdlock device (pictured). I still need to work on things as it can slip off. I was unable to sleep last night, waking up at 3:30am, so I went into my den and played with myself, repeatedly getting to the edge, but not letting myself cum. I was dripping precum, but held steady. K of course, slept like an angel. Tomorrow my neoprene ball stretchers should arrive, will wear them 24/7 until things hang right.